My Poems

Birthday Party

Looking away from huddled,

Quiet talking adults,

Sipping their drinks,

Trying not to spill on their suits and dresses,

To a little girl in a frilly orange dress,

Gripping a long wooden stick,

She’s grinning wildly while being blindfolded.

  

House on a Hill

An unknown force drawing me to the menacing house,

The clouds darkening and swirling,

A man in the window beckoning me forth,

The crackling thunder and a light drizzling of rain,

A creaking of the wooden floor boards beneath me,

The doorbell’s chiming is like a distant scream,

The lightning blinding me as I hear the door inching open.

Drama

I know I have said, "I'm a drama geek." before, but I never felt like I was part of it.
The only times I felt truly part of the drama department was during Seussical in 8th grade and UTA in 9th grade.  I had friends and we were just having fun.  I wasn't left out and I had a great time.  I got to be part of a show and I got to learn fun new things with great people.  But it was only during Seussical and UTA I felt like I was part of it.
Every other time I was just some stupid techie that no one ever thanked.  During Joseph, Parker and Jacob were the only ones, but it was expected since I did their make-up.  Every other time though I wasn't appreciated or I was bullied by the drama kids.  The worst was when I was stage manager for Bye Bye Birdie.  We were trying new things (punishments and rewards) for the cast to stop talking.  But with each new thing that was tried I was glared at with a hateful look and only one person ever said thank you.  This person was just a sevie in the cast who was actually grateful that I was helping out.  She was the only one who said thank you without being asked and said it every day.  She was the reason I didn't completely hate the show.  She is possibly one of the only drama kids that was always nice to me.  I really appreciated her.
I know that some of you who read this will think I'm crazy and I don't know what I'm saying, but I do.  I'm not an idiot and I know when people are rude to me.  I know when I'm not appreciated and people wished I wasn't there.  And the worst part of it is that the people who were rudest used to be some of my closest friends.
That's all I have to say and I'm really looking forward to UCAS.

UCAS

I would like to share with you all why I chose to go to UCAS, and not Lehi.  I was trying to figure out for longest time whether I should apply for the application.  Which I did.  That was because at that time I felt worthless in Lehi and thought it would be a good idea to get away from Lehi.  So I applied for the application. 
When I got the letter that I made it, my decision changed to going or not going to UCAS' new student orientation day.  That was in February.  At that point it was really hard for me to decide because I had just made some amazing new friends.  I didn't want to leave them, but I also didn't want to give up the chance to go to UCAS. 
Ultimately my only problem with the school is they don't do fine arts classes.  But after the year I had I didn't want to take part in any fine arts classes again.  I felt that when it came to that I would try my hardest and got nothing in return.  I couldn't handle the fact of working so hard for something and not being part of it. And being friends with people who didn't try as hard as I did and they made it.  It absolutely sucks.
But my decision for UCAS was the people in my grade.  I realized that a bunch of the 9th graders at my school are complete jerks.  They only care about themselves and always will.  They can't change that about them and I can't make them change.  So I decided to take the chance and get away from it all.  The people, the fine arts, the drama.  My life has been hard and I don't need stupid kids making it worse than it already is.

Lehi High

I'm not going to Lehi High, nor do I care.  I absolutely dislike so many people right now.  I'm glad I finally get to get away from them.  I hate Lehi.  Why did I even have to move here 5 years ago?  I have had some good moments here in Lehi, but plenty of horrible ones.  Especially with a ton of people right now.  UCAS here I come.  And on the good side, some of my true friends are coming with, not my 'friends'.  My 'friends' are the reason I am soooo excited to go to UCAS and get away from Lehi.

People

As some of you know, I have been having serious problems with some people.  Now I will not say any names of any kind, but some people are just jerks sometimes.  Some more than others.  But I have noticed and so have some other people...  There are quite a few seventh and eight graders who refuse to audition for Drama II.  The reason being there are some jerks in Drama II and the other grades only know those kids...  So they are assuming that taking Drama II will turn you into a jerk, or that everyone in Drama II is a jerk... Which totally isn't true.

I really am going to miss some people if I go to UCAS.  But at this point some people are making the decision very easy for me.  Go to UCAS because I'm done with all the stupid drama I have to deal with.  These drama (not theatre drama) kids are causing me way to much problems and I'm so done with it.

Stories and Stuff

I have yet to finish writing any of my stories but one... which is too bad because they all have good concepts...

I have a renewed love for reading.  I have finished reading "Enders Game" and "The Future of Us" both of which are really really really really really really really really really good books.  I am currently reading "Speaker for the Dead", the sequel to "Enders Game".  If you have any book recommendations just comment below.

I have also figured out that I miss all of my old friends who now go to Willow Creek.  I wish we could have a giant get together and just catch up on life.

I have been going through some rough things and have discovered things about me.  I will not say what happened and what I discovered.  But I did realize I need to be more careful with the people I trust.

That's what has been going on recently in my life.  Tell me about yours.  Just comment below.

2nd semester

man.... I don't think I have any classes with any friends... or lunch with any friends... :( it makes me soooooo sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!